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November 2009 
What are you sensitive about?
Posted on May 14th, 2009
by 
tara
tara
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for May 14, 2009:
What topics or circumstances are you more sensitive about than others? What life experiences have helped you relate to others who've been through the same?
Well, right now, sitting on my patio, i'm feeling rather sensitive to the sound coming from downstairs of an old sick man coughing up his lungs, going on 20 minutes now. I'm still not used to the sound although it's happening every day. In between coughing fits he manages to keep an argument going with his wife, another everyday happening. Apart from the days where the amount of wine consumed, exceeds his ability to stay awake. I cherish those moments of sheer silent bliss on my patio.
I'm also sensitive to the fact that my varying levels of annoyance chips away a lil on the amount of compassion & tolerance I am able to bring forth on the poor bugger's circumstance. However, meditating on the matter helps, esp when he is quiet tsk. I suspect he used to smoke and or drink a lot more than he does now, it's the kind of cough that spells cancer. And I suspect my annoyance is really a cover up for fear, as I used to smoke & drink a lot & there is likely still some self forgiving that needs to take place regarding that area of selfsabotage. And that's just one example of how my sensitivity gets triggered whenever I'm faced with an experience or circumstance I have projections on.
I used to be highly sensitive to ignorance, narrowmindedness, selfrighteousness & lies. Again, meditation helps & esp the exercise of trading arrogance for humility. Now, I'm sensitive to the energy of another, whether it drains me or delights me. I'm fx. also sensitive to the news. The daily display of killings & people suffering from living under horrid circumstances gets to me, makes my heart cringe & sometimes I let the sadness overwhelm me. Good deeds done & love shared also gets to me, makes my heart sing, moves me to tears & fills me up with them lil bubbles of joy. So does being embraced in acceptance by a friend really listening. And having my feet tickled needs to be on the list as well.
I'm gonna stop now cuz the second part of the question is equally huge. Or is it? What life experience hasn't helped me relate to others? Too big a mouthful to create a list of those, I'd be tapping away for like ever. Whatever the specific circumstance of an experience might be, we are not ever really going through the same, but it is the same emotions we experience.. oh, one experience does stand out, being honest with myself & owning my feelings has helped me relating to another from my heart without my own stuff getting in the way. And meditation, did I mention meditation?
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this was honest and sweet to read