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November 2009 
it doesn't matter
Posted on Sep 29th, 2008
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tara
tara
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for September 29, 2008:
.....Is there anything for which you would give up your life? Some have said that those who have nothing to die for also have nothing for which to live; others hold life itself sacrosanct. Is there anything for which you would sacrifice your life? What are your feelings around those who would answer in the reverse?
- my death inevitably ..btw, I esp like them lil ones.
[ la petite mort ]
I can't say for sure about any other possible scenarios, well obviously, since I'm still here. All I do know from experience is that allthough my survival instinct is strong, I have also instinctly thrown caution to the wind in a heartbeat with no thought of whether there would be a next, to put my life on the line to save another's. I quite like that paradox.
Applying intellect & knowledge from my spiritual practice to answer the question instead of mere instinct, it seems to be possible only when I relate it to attachment to living & or fear in relation to dying.
I love life, every precious changing, impermanent moment of it. Life itself is eternal & mine is but a lil bit of stardust twirling about like a parenthese in eternity. So is dying, something like skipping a breath for the longest time.
It is interesting how much emphasis can be put on that tiny moment which is dying when comparing to the amount of time we humans spent on the complexities of living. I guess it has something to do with that fear of living is perhaps fear of dying. I believe that a life lived joyfully with a heart free of attachment is the prerequisite for dying peacefully. Then, bottomline is, it doesn't matter for what reason I give up my life.
And the not so litteral, as in giving up my life aka not living it to the fullest? - nothing.
And what would my feelings be around those answering in reverse? - as long as it is a concsious choice, accept & a lil sting of sadness thinking about those who live in fear of living.
i used my best quote on living & dying the other day, but I think this dude got a point too:
The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What’s that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you’re too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last 9 months floating & you finish off as an orgasm. george carlin
"Dance Me To The End of Love" Leonard Cohen
photo from flickr by sachavierny
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great thoughts, great comedy…great song. You got a hat trick on this one.
What to say. I feel like a stalker sometimes,reading your blogs and then commenting on how rich and amazing they are. The vid well what's not to melt into when Leonard Cohen is around ?
As with all blogs and words and books and all the stuff we connect with,it's all about where the connection takes palce. What feeling born of the words touched me,reaching into myself and recognizing me in the words? Often a me I had no idea about :-)
You mentioned the fear of living is perhaps the fear of dying,and it took me further,maybe the fear of dying is bc we aren't really living in sync with ourselves and the fear is just another way of saying OMG not yet,there is something left to do,like swim with dolphins…nah,like travel the world…nah,like find the words that keep time with my heart….
tara I was here. I left a “wise and insightful comment” but the computer gremlins ate it.
back tomorrow if I can. I'm dancing, floating away now.
xoxo
-d
bb – you are perfect. I want you for my very own stalker. :-)
I have to say that I love to live, but to die will be the impeccable outage to an already ostentatious life. Living is long, and the longest thing we will ever do other than being dead, but being dead to me… is an eternal life. Although we all have different belief systems here, life to me is only a small portion of what we do as entities. As we learn here on Earth, we grow with more knowledge. As we perfect our knowledge we ascend into a greater place. Some are new and need practice, but knowing that in the end there is something more precious than what I have already experience here on Earth, such as motherhood, the big O's, Carmel apples and so on to me only makes me excited for the grand finale in the end. Although I love to live, to die and ascend will be the ultimate gift!
MR.Carlin….oh yeah,for me it has to be the idea that we are here for some reason,and we have a certain amount of time to wise up to the reason…for me its the nature of this planet,all the life and systems already here….I also see the human race,what are we doing???I feel like leaving out of embarrasment…………………….R
uuh, what a grrreat compliment! thank you Tom.. and I love hats too <3
you seem to know just what to say Bridget. I am delighted beyond words to know that mine inspire you to go to new places. I can assure you that you would never ever qualify as a stalker (unless I spot you lurking in the bushes); definetely not an internet one cuz they are all about taking, draining me for energy & squeezing every bit of beauty out of my moments on gaia. Your perceptive presence just takes me higher baby baby ;-)
oh.. yes on the last bit you wrote; that's what I mean with fear of living, not living in the now & doing what would really fill the soul with joy. I think it's when we procrastinate, the milk turns sour aka we want to live forever cuz there is so much we still want to do. There are so many aspects to fear of dying & angst in general, that a new layer seems to reveal itself for every one discovered. Although I made peace with my own death many years ago cuz I had to when it was in my face, I certainly slip into worrying that I won't have enough time to do all I want to do when I fall out of this moment now & into the abyss of my noisy mind where nothing is real. When I look at my grand plan for life, I feel I have yet to fully understand my purpose & utilise my potential (coach talking here) & I can get very impatient with myself & pissed off cuz circumstance has forced me into a much slower pace.. ( then I'm like Caspar Hausen who thinks he can control everything & throws himself into a tantrum when he can't get the birds to shut up ;-) Maybe this is what death is really about, the main thing we cannot control, as in when it happens. When we accept that, we can begin to truly live, surrender to the moment, embrace the perfection of what is & simply be…oh dear, I'm ranting & feel a prayer coming on:
god grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change those that I can
and the wisdom to know the difference
st. francis of assisi
dawn, dance dance dance & twirl on back when you can.. the anticipation of your insight & wisdom has me tickled pink ;-)
Hi Danielle, thanks for stopping by. As I understand your words, we seem to share the notion that it doesn't matter although our motivation & beliefs differ which I don't think matters either, so while we're here.. a lil gift for you..
Ralph, I'm with you on the there's got to be a reason for us being here.. I like to think it is has something to do with learning & by the look of things it might be a good idea for us humans to collectively speed up the process somewhat; Or maybe it is the thinking that get's us into trouble to begin with?.. if the thinking doesn't get me, the drinking will.. which reminds me of our lil talk the other day, Laphroaig is also an absolute delight in my universe. i'm not sure why it is, but the thought of single malt makes me hear the sound of this man..
This is an exquisite sentence:
So is dying, maybe something like skipping a breath for the longest time.
Oh yes, les petits morts……I caught that one alrighty;-) Aren't they just practice for the big one? I'm working on becoming an expert.
hugs~ J
hmm..or maybe they are the practice for becoming ONE?
and now that i'm reading that sentence again, it sounds more like something bridget would say..omg i'm channeling bridget ('o')
Aaaaaah the big ONE… the ultimate ONE… the ONE I've been looking for all my life:-)
the one that has been there all along, just waiting for me to notice? that one? yes, I think so…..
yes yes YES! I think so too. And now that I might be channeling bridget, ( i'm not usually this poetic myself ), i'll say it can't be this cuz she says that's just a lil one ;-)
tara, tara, tara, always expanding my musical horizons. I love it so much. :-) I love dance, dance, dance. and I love this….
god grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change those that I can
and the wisdom to know the difference
st. francis of assisi
you know sinead o'connor's I do not want what I haven't got album?? she speaks that quote at the beginning of one of the songs and I used to sing her songs to jordan as a lullaby – esp. I do not want what I haven't got. :-)
yes, we all one interconnected loveliness I think. :-)